Roberto

Does a life start at the intersection of another?

Can a moment encapsulate a whole life?

Can a moment wrap itself so deeply in the fabric of just one person that decades later, it's still as real and penetrating of a moment as it could have been back then, over 50 years ago.

dreams/unrealistic expectations

A lot have things have worked out far past the expectations I had for them.

I am in a far elevated position that I thought I would be at any point.  I make more than I ever thought I would.

I married the girl I had the biggest crush (don't think I'm allowed to use that word at almost 40) on in high school.  I have 2 beautiful children with her.

In all of these I didn't think I was good enough, and far surpassed my own expectations of myself, while still would have always adhered to very high expectations with much less self belief.  So it's then a defense mechanism set up to keep things in this life in high esteem, people, positions, money, everything, while keeping less expectations on myself as I'm not sure I could obtain those things.  When in reality I've surpassed the mark in many circumstances.

Unrealistic expectations can also work in the opposing way, I guess is what I'm saying.

So, aim high and have some confidence.?

Not sure quite there, but confidence has a key role in many aspects of our lives, and is a driver for some parts.

I'd like to have some, but I've always felt there were some level gained by experience, and some by success. And without either, it has to be another source.

Unrealistic expectations can hold us back because we have so little realistic expectations that ground us in where we're going, and can go.

thank you

I thank God for the hard days, and the learning from those hard days.

I thank God for the good days and the relief they bring from the hard days.

all is fleeting

All joy is fleeting.

All wins are fleeting.

All money is fleeting.

All feelings are fleeting.

All glory is fleeting.

our own problems

In the pandemic we reverted to our own problems.

We're all slowly building out of that back into he mindset, we can, and should, and must, help our neighbors.

Anthony Bourdain

Anthony Bourdain, like maybe Robin Williams or more akin to my, and maybe Tony's writing, of which I am not yet familiar, Hunter S. Thompson, killed themselves.

Yes, thes famous men who millions adored, who produced works that will live on for generations, who, in the end, either gave all of themselves in their craft, couldn't handle the push and pull of human hubirous, or, as my reiligious instinct points me, were searching, and putting hard work to the ground, but will never find that in this world.

No matter the empty hollowness that drove them to make and send themselves to their own deathbeds, the rest of us, on the outside [because I am certainly aware of the inside as these were people and I'm sure my selfish take as a "fan" would not endear their loved ones] are left to really ponder why.

Or left to understand that our hopes in this world, if they do rest in fame or financial success or even just individual career success, are empty and will leave us with a lifeless vessel that the production of our days is all thats left, and the person is no more.

Being our own god is tough.

But what about the rest of us?

How do we look, love, live, and hope for anything when the heros of our days are offing themselves after production of their greatest and celebrated works.

So if the end result of quality production in this life leaves us hollow still looking for more, we better praise the days of anonymity, and struggling, and living.

Perhaps thats whats taken away from these folks, life.  Living.

We get to live and struggle and make our ways, but success changes our goals and struggles.  

Possibly to areas and arenas we have no idea about and cannot navigate.

So while we complain about the day to day, we should look to the day to day as an anchor to levity that with the extreme highs some experience in this life, come the ying to the yang, the extemeties of the opposite end.

Surprised

And we're surprised?? We traded the best receiver in the nfl for Donte Moncreif.

Obviously that did not literally happen, however last year we had AB, problems and receptions, alike.  This year we have Donte Moncreif.

I'd like to take the yinzer blinders off for a second and truely respect the talent behind the crazy.  And to be honest, while 5 minutes of seeing this guy on hardknocks or seeing an interview, its easy to say this guy is an idiot.

But the fact remains that he is talented enough to make his own decisions, at marginal expense to his pocketbook, but from the standpoint of someone working 7 days a week just to scrape by, once you're in the 7, and 8, figures, does it really matter?

Yes, all of AB's BS may have been contrieved to get him to New England.

But, with or without AB, New England is great.  As evidenced by our first game.

So, let us move on as well, without hate or mockery, or with those things, because it really doesn't matter.

AB's gonna do what AB wants to do.

And he has the talent to do so.