goals

I'm sure there are at least 2 other of my blog posts with that same title, being that I have about 20 posts total, that may not be the case.

I've been trying to determine my goals on a weekly, monthly, daily, or at least yearly base for a couple years now. Its hard to determine an actual goal with all signs pointing to a downfall, but its necessary and more strategic to plan and have a set path. This path has been determined, around our sin and mistakes, so to keep goals is only really keeping hope that life will go in the direction one would seem it would. There are however many situations, instances, and just plain things we have to deal with along with the way that back track and hold us in one place. But us as free, for all intents and purposes without any further argument, as that could be argued very extensively, Americans have the choice and many options to a better, more meaningful, more purposeful existence. Now whether we seize that opportunity and strive to better ourselves, our families, and our communities, is a long shot, or it would so appear to be in today's world.

Myself, I am currently in an MBA program, have an over 40K/year job, a nice car, a fiance, a comfortable life, and even a growing relationship with God. But, I still fell dragged down and beaten. But mainly failed. I worked hard, somewhat, in high school, got a college degree, got an average career and am stuck. Now, is it redeemable that I have gotten closer to God and my faith, yes, and it is where I must head. I also must head in a further direction to fulfill my human needs. Education, especially a Master's program, even in today's professional world those are a dime a dozen, is a furthering of one's mind, and more importantly, ones professional resume. Still, I lack the fortitude and sound mind to think that this will further myself as a person.

Tradeoffs. I have to come to really believe that this life is based on tradeoffs. Of course, I am making a vague generalization, that we so often do in our weak, meaning less minds, but this must be said. This life is based on tradeoffs. I could go on explaining what I mean, but I'll just move on to my current tradeoffs. I also feel the term is very literal and one we understand.

I am attending this program, but what am I losing. This year and a half living a comfortable, enjoyable life is going to turn into one spent learning, and more so with today's post educational, and all educational, systems, memorizing and doing busy work.

Still, I lay.

Is this fulfilling my goals?