Monday, August 15, 2022

dreams/unrealistic expectations

A lot have things have worked out far past the expectations I had for them.

I am in a far elevated position that I thought I would be at any point.  I make more than I ever thought I would.

I married the girl I had the biggest crush (don't think I'm allowed to use that word at almost 40) on in high school.  I have 2 beautiful children with her.

In all of these I didn't think I was good enough, and far surpassed my own expectations of myself, while still would have always adhered to very high expectations with much less self belief.  So it's then a defense mechanism set up to keep things in this life in high esteem, people, positions, money, everything, while keeping less expectations on myself as I'm not sure I could obtain those things.  When in reality I've surpassed the mark in many circumstances.

Unrealistic expectations can also work in the opposing way, I guess is what I'm saying.

So, aim high and have some confidence.?

Not sure quite there, but confidence has a key role in many aspects of our lives, and is a driver for some parts.

I'd like to have some, but I've always felt there were some level gained by experience, and some by success. And without either, it has to be another source.

Unrealistic expectations can hold us back because we have so little realistic expectations that ground us in where we're going, and can go.

Sunday, May 8, 2022

thank you

I thank God for the hard days, and the learning from those hard days.

I thank God for the good days and the relief they bring from the hard days.

Friday, April 29, 2022

all is fleeting

All joy is fleeting.

All wins are fleeting.

All money is fleeting.

All feelings are fleeting.

All glory is fleeting.

Thursday, April 14, 2022

our own problems

In the pandemic we reverted to our own problems.

We're all slowly building out of that back into he mindset, we can, and should, and must, help our neighbors.