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I really used to enjoy the idea of a protest, a mass gathering of many people for one cause. It seems more noble than our everyday interactions with this world and this society. Acting on our beliefs to such an extense it causes us to gather for that one specific idea and notion that our actions will somehow affect others actions and decisions and choices throughout their lives, whether that be the public or the instituition itself.

Government is the main institution fought for, or better said, against. And it has been seen throughout history that both sides are heavily opiniated and heavily manned. I mean take for example the current state of Pittsburgh. Over how many people. Maybe several thousand, or maybe the number that could swarm this city is even imagined much more. Opiniated is an obvious, but massive is not so. As one, or at least one who grew up in most cities of the US, would see such groups as the minority; but when there is an international event, I guess one could expect such groups to be what would seem to be the majority.

Media intensely swings such beliefs and societal norms, but thats an entirely different subject.

MY thing with all of this is not the protest itself; except for the offshoot that it is a violent protest, which is most certainly in the realm of possibilities. My thing, more specifically, problem through all of this, is that at best it will be a futile attempt to challenge said authorities and institutions. At worst, well, I'm not informed or qualified to answer whatever could arise.

The first problem with protestors, not protests, is they have one main, very important ingrediant in American society, against them: the media. That brings up another such key integral part to society: the people.

What are we inclined to thing?

That with what we hear.

If we hear it, on a form of media that we, as Americans, view as government- (who we see perfectly fit to run society) managed, how are we to distrust this said information?

I don't blame the Average American; I just don't understand him. Ignorance is sadly understandable, just not an option if you want to be a producer/contributor within this society.

Now, protestors are not your Average ignorant Americans; they certianly do not share the same ignorances. But they are ignorant; ignorant of one thing: the other side. Because in this society we live in a multidemensional world, even if those dimension only amounts to two. They may only have eyes for one side; but the other side does exist. Maybe only in dreams or minds, but it still lives there, and many of those sides, or more naturally-named, beliefs, prosper within a media-crazed and -driven world.

My biggest personal gripe is that it makes no sense; you're trying to influence a society, more so, a system, that you yourself left. And you can guarentee me that this current system pushes many to that point. However, most cannot act upon it in such dramatic form; but certainly do rebel against it in small ways.

So, to bring an idea, and more so, try to bring a change in idea, to a society that will not bring themselves to live a life that many radical protestors live; one of abandoment and outcasting, due to their choice in departure from said society.

It makes not sense to me.

I'd love to write forever, but I have a bed time. And its long gone.

More words need to be said. B/c the songs and the words own the beating of our hearts.

That ruined any chance of authenticity or regard to the words I just so passionatly wrote. (that kind of ruined it too)

tomorrow

I live on a notion that tomorrow will be the day. Whatever that action may be. It will be tomorrow. When someday, tomorrow, I won't be here. So, waiting for these specific actions to occur is basically what I determine to be life.

And tomorrow comes, and there, I lose everything I've ever wanted.

I try to everyday, better myself; find a new reason to be alive, a purpose. And after 25 years on the earth, I continue to lack any direction, just living to live. Or dying to die. Whichever suits yourself; that or any combination, there of.

I know we are here for a reason, and I tend to find such from day to day, with many days interlocking the days of revelation.

And thus maybe the problem with my writing.

I want to write all the time, at least once a day, or even several times a week.

But I have no purpose, thus no topic. So, maybe I shall, just like formal education, chose myself a topic and elaborate as such.

Unfortunately, this is neither the time nor place.

Ok, while that may have been a bit over-exagerated; I'd rather write a topic on one of the 4 books I wish to someday scribe.

But I am neither, a scribe, or a motivated person.

Selah.

where I am....

I've been working on finding inspiration, in anything and everything that I can pull from, and most importantly, at any time. Most times, I feel the same depression and ignorance that most feel towards the creative side of their persona; one that, I believe, we should never fully give up on or discount. But as I journey through this life, I find that most of the people that I come in contact have no thought or understanding of such a so-called 'creative' side. We have lost hope in ourselves and hang onto the thoughts, ideas, and works of others, while not contributing anything to the picture.

I, in fact, started this blog, and many other of my various works, and even more so, actions in life, to not only improve on myself, but bring an understanding that I do not want credit(unless a day comes where that opportunity strikes), I solely am for the movement of those who I come into contact with. I want to affect the masses, and more meaningfully, those around me, my family, friends, co-workers, neighbors, and even strangers.

We are here to take this journey together; to feed off one another's visions and creations. But we lacklustly ignore everything, and every gift, we've been given. To be soul-less, lost beings with not much of a purpose other than to follow. Follow the ways we've been taught.

So, essentially, to solely take our society in and become nothing more than a by-product. And eventually waste.

Now, what should we then do, if this nonsense could actually be true?

Not become a typical American consumer, buying into media outlets and shopping malls, but buying into ourselves, and creating. Creating a better sense of being though, just that, creation. As we expand our ideas and thoughts, and for that matter, creations, there are many reactions that effect many people.

I struggle with this everyday. As, I assume, we all do.