....Am I supposed to name it like a movie. Brother, Where art though?....Help.....the Death of College....I'll go with the last, even though, thats not particularly stating what this will be about, but the mere death of me in total...Sooo, the name of the entire blog...as I did just post a 'speech' to a State Board, which as is now, I hit a couple blocks and basically, 'pussed out'....No other way to put it other than slang; I have a desire to make a difference, or, at the very least, have a voice and use it. Instead of this stagnant, selfish society that is America...And perhaps that, is a good introduction....So, maybe I don't have a good title, but an intro is as good as a title...
So, back to my original inspiration of the moment. Football. It's seem to have taken over all my interest and my determination of my level of joy. I am telling many of this addiction, but none seem to take it seriously. But it is an addiction, I'm fantasyin, watchin football Sunday, and all Saturday, and letting my emotions be controlled by the outcome of a game, a game that, at times, I question if its even fixed. So, my level of happiness or depression is driven by this GAME. And I very much understand this situation, and its severity, but it is this. And That is an association that I have put onto these teams. I live, and was born and raised, in Pittsburgh; DUH! pretty obvious where my football priorities lie there. And I went to Penn State. by they way, Lets go State! So, as I have branded myself with this, my 'hopes and dreams' are intertwined with this GAME. I was so bad at the bar yesterday, that I literally was like real nervous that whole game. Obviously, being at a bar, I made the right to decision on how to calm my nerves, and shotted myself. Only a couple, but the beers didn't stop flowing. All, as is normal, with this generation. Although, I'm not very big on generalizations, I still put that out there. Mainly because there are always exceptions. And while grouping all of those in one category, or generalization, only shows ignorance, AND, a blatant display of it. But as much as I love State, the Steelers, and Pittsburgh sports, it is only trying to fill a void that I have of something. Love for some things and interests and hobbies are all good, but taking it to a dominating level, does not seem to me worth basing my life on. And definitely spending my whole life attached to a game, and on others lives, would be a waste. So, somewhere there is a happy medium. Hopefully, I'll find mine. But as I sit here and 'blog' I'm reminded of why I 'Blog'. To find myself, which as long as I've been writing about myself and my experiences, I have never found myself, Maybe, even stepped backwards on that path. Hell, I've even come to many psychological and societal 'generalizations', but like I just said, thats all wrong. So, I futilely write so I never stop trying. And thats one thing I believe in, and can generalize my life into. Never stop that. But I fail, and so, as Vonnegut put in the book I'm readin right now
So it goes...
ha, and, as Hunter puts it.
And I digress...
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