The times passes...

Wow, its been 3 years since Ive attempted one of these, and again i'd like to get my stuff, poems, words, songs, whatever, out there, even if noones there to read, at least there there, and my unread, maybe even unwritten, words will be not seen or appreciated, or understood for that matter, at least theyre there and I won't die in infamy to never have left this world with anything but ruined friendships, failed attempts to follow my creator, and a family thats just bearly hanging on...wow, long sentence, and too many uses of the word wow, I can't be amazed at everything, or can I. Well, maybe this is being started to strike my creativity so that I can proceed to write the book Ive been wanting to write*I hear they have a website for that too. They think of everything, and take it away to corporate america to make money off our needy american souls, and the rest of the world that is in our percentile, not many, and to think I complain about my economic situation, when I'm surrounded by the hood, and many people, black and white, who don't drive cadillacs and have penn state educations, even though the rest of my life, or at least 20 yrs will be spent with my hand to the grindstone trying to pay those 'blessings' that most forgo b/c they realize, like I should have, that they were not born for that. But I tried to reach for more and failed, but I'm not done yet. i'm just getting started. Losing hope along the way, but that lies everywhere, in music, in others blessings, in my familys stability. And most of all, in my head. As does the choice that we all have. To make something of what we've been given, or will we just fall away in indifference and live menial, ignorant, stagnant lives. Something I fight everyday, while going to and fro from my 9 to 5. And here I release, and try to understand all, while you either listen, don't, or I just rant to one day, hopefully(and I'm losing that daily) understand myself. Selah. An end like a great intellectual of our time once put, many times, so I shall use.