I have a problem

OK, so. We all have problems. We all live in this society, or in any society for that matter, that creates problems. Out of solutions of others, in fact. So, our problems are merely created by others perception of what will solve their specific problems. Now before I get too off-schedule, my problem is just that; that there are so many opinions and so many forces caused by those opinions that we all will not be able to solve all of our problems all the time. Government and society are the best pictures of this. Think of the last couple presidents, and soon to be. Have you liked them? Have you disliked their views? Have you straight out hated them? Hell, for the illogical and comical, have you loved them? Whatever, it may be, there are still forces in this world, man-made forces, to be exact that create problems for us.

That might have been a good intro for this had I not gone off too long, in a nonsensical way. But either way, one must express their thoughts, to the world, to themselves, or whatever will have you. And that ONE, being me; I feel that I must write, to further our lives, and have a deeper purpose, and have understood myself, and ourselves, through self-meditation, or reflection, as such.

Back to my problem, though. Because I do have a problem. I got into a fight the other day with my mother over having the desire, and at 25, the NEED to move out, to get the hell outta here. Sorry for the personal display of emotion there; this is a blog, so that may be legal. And having the desire to move out, the only realistic option I have is to move in with someone else who can support half of that life. And who better person, than a significant other; and at 25, especially in this society, is not that out of the ordinary and the norm to which we have been brought up in, again, as a society. I do not know, I will admit, that I definitely have not been brought up in a family of a broker 24yr old couple. My parents waited for a financially, yet for them, not so much, better time in their lives, and they created my family with love, and God.

And so it was; and never would I have it any other way. I would have heard and known of God anywhere else, but nowhere I would have been so immersed in that sense of self-worth and moral-way of being. And still I believe. But to look at this world and say, 'I can live here uniformingly with God and my fellow man, without living under the net of the society, and all it consists of: government, corporation, media, and most of all in this American Capitalistic Representative Democracy, the economy.

This has been a major topic since forever; we're falling, we're rising. Our views and our society fills with economic influence from everywhere. And most of all from the listed forms that a society takes on.

But perhaps, it is the largest part of society, the people, that should be able to take heed. And not the divisions, that are so powerful, that have taken on and directed the people portion of societies for all that I have known, and since when, I don't know. But should the people not have a major say in the effects of their lives?

I question this everyday, and hate everything, because of it.

But still, I live within this tent we deem society. Yes, I am a minute percentage of that people part of society, but that is nothing, with the power of the other parts of it.
As I always seem to do. I digress.

I told my mother this.

I said I am not trying to not live religiously, or more my view, Godly, as in having a relationship with this maker of the earth. I am not trying to go against this. But I am simply saying that I live within an economic society. And most importantly, I have to make decisions based on the effects of my personal economy. Because, in turn, the other parts of the life that I am living, will be, as is my hope, even though that hope diminishes everyday, prospering. But they, as is logical, usually are adversely affected at times as well. As I told her this, I asked for only one thing, whether she understood the b/s that comes out of my mouth in person, and hell, for that matter, on paper. It gets a little jumbled within my cranium. But either way, I told her that all I asked for was understanding.

I understand that it is not correct to bend your views, especially on subjects as government and religion.

But I cannot seperate the two. And as I have seen many times, and is seen running rampant through our society in these current time, is one of those major sides of society, the economy, is failing, and falling. So what does that mean? We live in a failed society, because all parts work together, and as the government and big business have failed, so have the people.

I guess.

I also guess that my life is affected by the decisions I make, as is any unemployed, or over-employed, person. So, we control our own destinies, maybe. I'm not saying life is chance after that, but I am saying that we will chose the paths the lead to different results every which way.

And in my life, I told my mother I would move in with my girlfriend, outside of the chains of a marital relationship....

side note-
that was harsh. ok. reword.

....outsde the struggles of marriage, but to move in, to only try to further my life.

All I want, and I would think would be the majority of our wishes.

Is to have it a little bit better than our parents ever had it.

I guess the determining factor is how little.

As I continue to never follow a path with my writing, please take this away.

We are greatly affected by our chains to society, and those ARE chains, in the shackle sense.
But, do we have to always live within the confined trenches of our economy.

And as is now, our failing economy.

Selah. As one great writer put it.

I say peace, or more like hope.

B/c I lost all mine.