I hate......sometimes

I do, I really do. Which isn't really what I'm trying to convey in this life, and me, about all, should know that hating and prejudice and this system we're born into isn't right. And its our Right and responsibility to correct that how we see fit, within the means that our country allows. Remember the Civil War. Yes, that, that is what our country was founded on and formed for, the outcasts, the minorities, the poor, what does the Statue of Liberty say, 'Give us your tired and hungry and poor'. Somethin' like that, so I continue with another quote.

'Excuse my french, my emotion and my passion,
but I wear my heart on my sleeve like its the new fashion'

Yeah, I did that. I just went from quoting the Statue of Liberty face plate to quotin' Weezy. Ha.

But anyways, I digress. I do however, and have always, worn my heart on my sleeve to this public, a trait, that for better or worse, has brought me to this somewhat dire situation I've been entangled in now. But I'm here, and surviving, and even living to a certain extent. I'm in love. And to my best friend, he quit his job and has that, so I figure if he can lean on that for self worth and fulfillment, I'll try love too.

But as I wear my heart, I feel better; I feel as if I have progressed. That I tried for that day. And I continue on from those days holding on to the hope that when tomorrow comes I will have that same drive for continuing in my path. A mess that path is, but its filled with many decisions, and its many of these decisions have led me to this point, where I know that I do have these feelings, which seem to infect every aspect of life. I've stopped trying to move forward to stop back and hate. Hate on everything for it bein' it and me bein' me. But thats where I stand; and here's how it came about today that I was made aware of it in the greatest extent possible. Well, maybe thats a little dramatic, I means theres people fighting wars, theres people starving, there are many that have a very much less-desirable life than I am living at the present. But I still I bitch. Is that the American way? Should I blog on a computer, technology that is not available to many who exist outside of this 'digital divide' created by society, mainly our views on a one view capitalist, democratic system. And even more so; to have a country and a world where #1 for most is money. A greed based system of pride and dollar signs. That we are forever and everyday surrounded in. I've been elsewhere. Where these capitalistic American ideals do not flow over to everything, I mean, hell, there are many other places within the US that this is not the case. However, society there may have other societal-induced problems, such as is also a plague to the US, ignorance. So, if greed does not consume your view, it is ignorance. Maybe you've been left out of that picture so ignorance is the choice, whatever it may be, I guess the point I'm trying to make is that. We all have problems, its the decision to change and constantly accept we can be better versions of ourselves.

We are all plagued with problems, whether we know it or not, but its how we address that and continue and 'will live' instead of 'have lived'.

I do hate.

But I also try.